Saturday, 18 December 2010

Idealist? Pessimist?

Snow.

That one word apparently grinds England to a halt every time it strikes. (I feel my eyebrow raise in disapproval/disdain even as I type this).
Why is it that a country that used to have snow all of the time every winter, now, despite considerable technological advancements, can't cope with what was like an hour or so's snow? (the eyebrow threatens once more).

My Dad made a very good point the other day. He said "if everyone were to clear the snow outside of their houses then we could all walk down our roads". Seems perfectly logical doesn't it? lol. I don't know why the thought didn't occur to me before but anyway it's here now, and with it comes a new train of thought. Could it be that the reason why we don't clear the snow outside of our houses is the same reason why we have a whole load of legislation that nobody, except government officials, and bare guys who've never been to Catford, wants? Could it be that there is no longer any sense of community (well in London anyway) and we are all living sub standard lives as a result of our own selfishness and unwillingness? Well maybe not that far, but it's something that I've been thinking about since this snowy saga began.

As I returned home from a triumphant day at Uni (got 100% in my last assessment boosting my overall grade for that module to 92% = 1st class = :D) I saw my neighbour, a black man in his late 50's (ish), clearing the snow from outside of his house. I was immediately proud that a black man had set the trend (in snow clearing yuh na! lol) and decided to clear the snow from in front of my own home. I came home again today to find a heavy layer of settled snow and cleared a path once more. I am now seriously considering writing to all of the people on my road, asking for their assistance in clearing the snow and making our road a better place. As I type I'm surprised at myself. I am usually very critical of humanity in general and in the past would have been pessimistic about such an idea. Could it be that I am becoming a closet idealist? *shrinks back from the thought* lol

Maybe it is the case that, in order to bring about real change, one must have some positivity and belief. Belief in one's God, belief in oneself and belief in people in general.


My listening as I wrote this blog:

(an old school year 9/10 grime instrumental that was big back in the day. It's been stuck in my head)

Thursday, 9 December 2010

DPMO / DBAP

Right! I've had enough!

For those of you who don't know, which is probably like all of you, my nuclear family is going through a financial rough patch at the moment. I'd love to help out but working one day a week cos of Uni means my own funds aren't abundant. Anyway from a natural/physical/worldly perspective it's pretty peak but I am 100% certain that God is just taking us through a time of growing and learning by means of this current trial. James 1:2-4

SO I came home from Uni today and I noticed that there is some weird vibe in my crib. A weird vibe that began to contaminate my own mind. A weird vibe that is, no doubt, the direct result of negativity/stress caused by this very situation. So there I am standing there thinking "arr there's nothing I can do" blah blah blah feeling sorry for myself/ourselves yeah, and then I just said to myself "oi Jon, Don't Be A Pussy". I feel the jaws of some drop... Oh well lol. Real talk, God is sovereign, nothing is gonna happen to us, it, along with the rest of our lives, is in His hand.

There is nothing wrong with the situation, which is not caused by satan... However, there is something wrong with my response which has been influenced by the enemy and I'm not having it! Don't Piss Me Off init! (not you obviously lol). Now I'm not gonna get carried away in my own strength, I'm gonna pray cos "we wrestle not against flesh and blood" Ephesians 6:10-16. If you ever bother to read my blog, don't have it when the enemy tries it, we are the sons (and daughters) of GOD. Say Nay!

Anyway I'm overly gassed/pissed/amped right now. Is there such as a thing as being righteously pissed off? I think this is it still lol. Matthew 21:12-13 (slightly out of context admittedly lol)

And while I'm here, a quick rant. Let me know how sooo many people fall for these bait Blackberry broadcasts? How can sending on a broadcast fix your BB? How can people randomly charge you £25 for not sending on a broadcast? Is that in your contract? Is that lawful? and how are you gonna tell me it's on the news when all that's on the news is an Asian woman who got murdered, possibly by her husband, on holiday? It's not even really the broadcasts that get to me anymore. It's how gullible people are... smh Rant over.(Acts 17:11/Ephesians 4:14 lol)

Here's my current listening: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p4BTmTZeOsY               enjoy!

Monday, 6 December 2010

A light for my path

So today I spoke to the leader for Business Computing which is the programme (course) I want to change to from Computer Science.

I just wanted to know whether I could keep my place at the University and begin again on Business Computing next year as it seems that I cannot, at this late stage in the first term, change programme. I was told that this is indeed possible :) so that may be my course of action. It's funny how some people would be completely daunted by the situation that I currently find myself in, in fact some are daunted for me lol. I on the other hand am totally at peace with the whole thing and am even looking forward to my unknown future. Right now I have a slight grin on my face, you know that satisfied with life, just chillin' grin? yeah that one.

It's kinda strange actually as I contemplate the near future. Shall I.... Apply for this nice job vacancy I've spotted seeing as I might not be in education much longer? Or do the Business coursework for Business Computing and hand that in as a last ditch attempt to get on the course? Maybe I should continue organising my 20th birthday thing... or just watch The Family.

And all of that  ^^^  is the tip of the iceberg really.

I guess I'm just mindful that God has great things for me, spiritually and also in the worldly sense so it's like however I'm meant to get there, the fact remains that I will get there cos He holds my life in the palm of His hand.

How do we live our little lives without the love of Jesus?... boi...

As a brother from church once said to me "The Bible says 'a lamp to my feet and a light for my path' so that doesn't mean that we will see everything, just what is ahead of us".

Right now I can just about see whats in front of my feet lol but that's enough.