Hi.
Yeah it's been ages.
There's a reason, which I'll maybe explain one day.
So it's cold and I just want to leave uni but I've put off blogging too many times, so here it goes. As the blog in my heart is unfinished, I shall post my past month or so's pondering and past 3 month or so's struggle.
Two words. Default Position.
Do you know what I mean by that? I wouldn't lol. (I'm in a funny mood; you can probably tell)
What I mean is: what is the generic, standard, base, core thing upon which you meditate? What do you think of when you first wake up? What do you ponder on before you slip away into the silky embrace of a good night's sleep? What springs to mind when you finish something taxing, like a day at work or a piece of coursework, and return back to the rest of life?
What is the default thing that you mull over?
The thing that dwells at the center of the universe of your meditations?
That, in my humble opinion, is your default position.
Many would also consider it to be the thing that we worship or allow to be highest in our lives.
Could it be our job or lack of? Possibly our future or rather its uncertainty?
What that woman said to you at church that jarred you? Could it be a ghost from the past that never ceases to haunt you? Maybe even your wife/husband or the girl with whom things aren't official but you've got your unsaid thing going on?
Whatever it is, the reality is that our default position should be God and the things of God if we are Christians. This is not to say that we should never consider those Vans in Office, or wonder why snapbacks, fitted jeans/chinos and high top trainers must die a thousand deaths or meditate on our other half (or lack of). It's just that these things should not be our center. "As a man thinketh in his heart so is he" - Bible.
For a long time I've really wrestled with keeping God on the throne. I haven't fallen into sexual sin or any of those obvious sins. I have simply allowed other things/people to subtly take His place. Preferring their presence to His. Spending more time listening to their words and pondering their opinions than listening to Him and His word. I never stopped praying. I didn't stop reading my Bible. I didn't stop going to church. I just didn't put God first and the arena in which He wasn't preeminent happened to be the arena which determined all of the other arenas within my control. My thoughts.
I'm growing much closer to God once more. I'm still susceptible to a change of default position. Even today problems out of my control attempted to usher Jesus from His position but He's back. I suppose you could call it part of abiding? (John 15). Anyway, enough of my mullings.
Let us flee idolatry. God hates it like He hates the bait sin. If we believe the songs that we sing to be true then lets live that eh? I'm preaching to myself lol.
Grace and Peace