Sometimes I would just love to know what God is doing lol. If you're a believer who can't relate then just give it a while ;)
Earlier I kind of said to God "you've got plans for me, so like what are they?". He reminded me that "I know the plans I have for you, not you know the plans I have for you" LOL God's got a sense of humour you know! Basically, on Friday I was told, by one of the lecturers, that I might be able to finish half of Business Computing this year and do the other half next year and then go back full time for the last two years as opposed to dropping out and starting again next year from scratch on the correct course. Sound's good doesn't it? Well today I checked and it's not possible lol *sigh*. However, I am now told that I can do Business Computing in the second and third years and just finish this year as a computing programme instead of Computer Science... So I must choose between interrupting my studies and taking a year longer to complete my degree or doing INCREDIBLE amounts of work to catch up as I've been skipping lectures and coursework for months believing that I would have to do them again. There's a lesson there, do everything with excellence, no matter if it seems pointless or if anyone is there to see your excellence just do it unto God.
The wickedest ting is that the Lord was slyly telling me to be diligent and roll out of bed, even though it seemed as if I didn't have to, but I just played it down and tried to ignore it / act as if it wasn't so. I can be a bit of a mug sometimes. *BBM hand over face emote*
Anyway I'm unsure of what to do at this stage but it will all work out in the end no doubt. God's will be done man! I'd love to do some ministerial type things and go and visit a few of my Uni dons as well as get a car and stuff but as my brother once said to me "Jon, there's a good idea and then there's a God idea".
Ahh the simple complexity of this mortal life...
Monday, 31 January 2011
Wednesday, 26 January 2011
January
Janvier... (January)
This month has been one of, well..., growing, ranting and learning lol.
Even today at work I was ranting in the staff room because someone left two dirty extension leads in the cupboard... THE cup-board. Rant over.
Aside from such trivial grievances, I've often lacked direction this month especially in the physical. The funny thing is, the whole time my pastor has been talking about planning, writing down your vision and making it plain etc and I heard him but didn't actually listen.
So now I've been endeavouring to apply this to myself. Getting pictures of the things I'm trying to achieve/attain to help myself get on the wave/frequency of those things. Making broad plans for the year and praying for God's guidance in the making and implementing of such goals. I'm slightly wary as throughout my life the Lord has taken me in completely different directions from those that I planned to travel in and without God's backing well...
I might be officially leaving Uni tomorrow. I spoke to my personal tutor about it on Tuesday and I've got one more meeting tomorrow then I believe I'm free to interrupt my studies until next year. Need to talk to student finance, *prays* "Dad please don't let them take my loan awaaaayyyyy" Lol I ain't tryna make no repayments either but we'll see what they're saying.
Sarah told me that I should join Twitter "cos it's like soo just beautiful and you should just really join" so I took her advice which was definitely a good move. Twitter is actually a brilliant invention if used well. I've been so encouraged by the tweets of my brothers and sisters and I've just been on the bus laughing at some of the tweets which often have me in stitches. I've also discovered that if you follow the wrong people due to this jarring #TeamFollowBack wave then once beautiful feeds can be corrupted. Might have to unfollow some of my unsaved bredrins #real talk. Oh yeah I put #overemphasisedstatements like that one in most things I type nowadays lol.
In other news:
- My roller skates arrived today :)
- GuvnaB's mixtape exists and has some decent tunes as does Serene's and Ejiro's
- I'm currently considering/praying about jumping back on music
- I'm still trying to scoop a new job :(
- I prayed with a couple dons from church about discernment over Satans attempts to destroy our fire and God has blessed me with an additional portion of discernment. Halleleujah :) ain't tryna get punked no mo'!
Of late I've been extremely encouraged in general and really loving the freedom of being that can only be experienced through walking in the spirit and focusing on God. I will now endeavour to deepen my relationship with God cos that's what life and eternity and my existence is largely about. I've been pondering about the lack of application of the heart of God's word amongst believers today for quite a while (what a mouthful). Enough pondering man! Time to just commit to something, to do something, to help someone, to glorify the name of the Lord somehow!
#Talkischeap lol
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Tuesday, 18 January 2011
Your love is extravagant
If you've bothered to read any of my previous blogs, you'd know that the last few months haven't exactly been plain sailing for me spiritually. In fact the seas have been choppy at times and serene at others.
Of late I've been trying to press into God and reclaim the spiritual highs and victories that I had in the latter parts of 2010. In all honesty it's been a struggle. A lot of the serious guys haven't been available for fellowship due to Uni, work, girlfriends etc and I honestly believe that although fellowship is beautiful and necessary, I should be able to seek God when I need to; without having to ring a brother or sister all of the time. Especially if I am to be some kind of leader in the future!
The Lord answered my prayers on this subject in the most interesting of ways. I went to get a new phone with my cousin (Thanks Debs ;) ) and ended up staying at his house. The next day they happened to be fasting as their whole church had been called to fast. I decided to partake in this fast as I felt the Lord had brought me here for more then I had anticipated.
WOW! I completely forgot about fasting. Like I mean the word had left my vocabulary until yesterday. It's been a beautiful time of fellowship with my family (I'm privileged to have Christian family) but even more beautiful time reconnecting with the Lord and having him comfort and speak to me. Jheeez!
He spoke to me regarding the knowledge and understanding which He has blessed me with and how I haven't combined it with love. He showed me that all of the things that I would like too see achieved in the church and in my own life can be achieved with the greatest commandments. Loving God and loving others.
Love is a powerful thing if displayed honestly and truthfully because displaying love is displaying God.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q3NP1nXSOT4
Of late I've been trying to press into God and reclaim the spiritual highs and victories that I had in the latter parts of 2010. In all honesty it's been a struggle. A lot of the serious guys haven't been available for fellowship due to Uni, work, girlfriends etc and I honestly believe that although fellowship is beautiful and necessary, I should be able to seek God when I need to; without having to ring a brother or sister all of the time. Especially if I am to be some kind of leader in the future!
The Lord answered my prayers on this subject in the most interesting of ways. I went to get a new phone with my cousin (Thanks Debs ;) ) and ended up staying at his house. The next day they happened to be fasting as their whole church had been called to fast. I decided to partake in this fast as I felt the Lord had brought me here for more then I had anticipated.
WOW! I completely forgot about fasting. Like I mean the word had left my vocabulary until yesterday. It's been a beautiful time of fellowship with my family (I'm privileged to have Christian family) but even more beautiful time reconnecting with the Lord and having him comfort and speak to me. Jheeez!
He spoke to me regarding the knowledge and understanding which He has blessed me with and how I haven't combined it with love. He showed me that all of the things that I would like too see achieved in the church and in my own life can be achieved with the greatest commandments. Loving God and loving others.
Love is a powerful thing if displayed honestly and truthfully because displaying love is displaying God.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q3NP1nXSOT4
Sunday, 16 January 2011
Swirling
So a lot of thoughts are swirling around my head.
Let me explain.
When I was in school there was one boy who was in my class. The boy was semi road and I brought him to church a couple of times. Long story short, he went pen (prison) and I didn't see him for ages.
I saw him around the ends now and then as I got older and now I haven't seen him in years. The yout (young male) then added me on facebook the other day and he's clearly gone 100% road. The yout also knows where I live. Soo I am embarrassed to admit that, using my fleshly/hood mind, I decided it was wiser not to accept his friend request in case he was looking to "try a ting".
So... I ignored his request and left it for months. He re-requested again today and having been to church and convicted etc I just decided to accept.
Turns out he's in prison and asks for me to pray for him...
So here I am. Jon with dreams of helping out in the hood and being real, relevant and reflecting Christ in my community, and yet up until that moment when I accepted his friend request I was a total hypocrite. I now feel quite waste I must say.
The thing is I really would like to be all that I said above but I've got a lot to learn. However, I suffer from over deliberation and mass inaction across practically all areas of my life except when it comes to criticising people or making jokes :s .
LORD please help me to be the man that you want me to be, please help me to walk in your truth and not be a hypocrite, please help me to change people's lives and not just be a Christian who goes to church and doesn't rave, doesn't swear, doesn't smoke and doesn't do anything that matters really. In Jesus' name. Amen.
I started off saying that a lot of thoughts (plural) are swirling around my head... and they are that's just one of em'. I'll share the rest another time; God willing. Keep me in prayer if you've bothered to read this lol I'm 20 now, old-er but still young and in need of Grace.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v17BcjVeQ_g << listen to it.
Let me explain.
When I was in school there was one boy who was in my class. The boy was semi road and I brought him to church a couple of times. Long story short, he went pen (prison) and I didn't see him for ages.
I saw him around the ends now and then as I got older and now I haven't seen him in years. The yout (young male) then added me on facebook the other day and he's clearly gone 100% road. The yout also knows where I live. Soo I am embarrassed to admit that, using my fleshly/hood mind, I decided it was wiser not to accept his friend request in case he was looking to "try a ting".
So... I ignored his request and left it for months. He re-requested again today and having been to church and convicted etc I just decided to accept.
Turns out he's in prison and asks for me to pray for him...
So here I am. Jon with dreams of helping out in the hood and being real, relevant and reflecting Christ in my community, and yet up until that moment when I accepted his friend request I was a total hypocrite. I now feel quite waste I must say.
The thing is I really would like to be all that I said above but I've got a lot to learn. However, I suffer from over deliberation and mass inaction across practically all areas of my life except when it comes to criticising people or making jokes :s .
LORD please help me to be the man that you want me to be, please help me to walk in your truth and not be a hypocrite, please help me to change people's lives and not just be a Christian who goes to church and doesn't rave, doesn't swear, doesn't smoke and doesn't do anything that matters really. In Jesus' name. Amen.
I started off saying that a lot of thoughts (plural) are swirling around my head... and they are that's just one of em'. I'll share the rest another time; God willing. Keep me in prayer if you've bothered to read this lol I'm 20 now, old-er but still young and in need of Grace.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v17BcjVeQ_g << listen to it.
Monday, 3 January 2011
I need you now
It's been a little while.
First post, of the second decade, of the 21st century!
Boi... It's been a rough few weeks for no particularly momentous reason actually.
In hindsight I can see that my walk with God has been slowly declining from the peaks that it reached in the latter part of 2010. The fire slowly burnt out and stagnation set in and whilst in a general, cliched sense, I haven't backslidden, I suppose that I kind of have.
I think I should explain that statement a little better lol.
Cliched or Bait backsliding:
Wild/regular raving, Drunkenness, Sexual sin, Drug taking / Smoking, Crude/Bad/Profane language, Decline in Church attendance and so on.
My conduct of late wouldn't fit into the above, however, I have been more absorbed with the things of the world and my thoughts have become a lot darker and more sinful of late whilst my relationship with God has waned.
It's kinda weird cos I seemed to just find myself in this situation and it took me a while to discern over where I had gone wrong. I now understand that the enemy has been crafty in his latest assault on my life. Life suddenly became hectic with Uni work piling up, issues arose at work with my manager, a tough financial situation in my family began to effect me, someone at church angered me and so on and so forth. No obvious light skinned devils came to tempt me, no sudden urge to hit "naughty but nice" or whatever the latest rave is called lol just a whole lot of life!
So I began to lose focus on God and instead focus on the worldly/material which has ultimately caused me to get to the place I've been in since 30th Dec 2010 to Today (3rd January 2011). I feel like I've spiritually ate a whole bargain bucket of moreleys chicken and chips to myself. It has been quite horrible come to think of it, feeding the flesh and making little to no effort in the spirit. My prayer life has been a mess, when I have read the word I didn't truly pay attention to it, fellowship's dropped off and so on.
Today I kinda reached the end of my tether.
I watched a shed load of One Piece with no self control, and I just generally jammed on my one's doing nothing of any great worth like a bum! There came a point where I just thought, "this can't go on". I had to turn on some gospel music real quick and when Smokie Norful's "I need you now" came on it was like a breath of fresh air. I realised, actually, yeah Lord I do need you now, and I needed you before and I always will need you! So I chucked myself onto my bed and layed face down before the Lord and poured out my heart and my struggles before him and it was great! I felt so relieved. He spoke to me and showed me a some of where I had gone wrong, encouraged me that He knew that I needed Him, He just needed me to know that lol or re-know that (making up words here).
Now I feel MUCH better and my head is in a better place. I was reflecting, a few moments ago, on how, not long ago, I was in a victorious place where I felt no fear of my uncertain future and now, as I enter into it, I've been confused and unsure. The difference? I haven't been walking in the spirit, but feeding the flesh, focused on worldly things and in this state I've been unable to trust God and live in His peace.
Now that I'm on my way back to the Lord I can see with fresh eyes how beautiful this walk with God is and how ugly life can be when idols come in and He is no longer the desire of our hearts.
So, now officially ready for 2011 seeing as I know, once more, the most important thing anyone can ever know. That I need Jesus!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CDpY-2M5dVo
First post, of the second decade, of the 21st century!
Boi... It's been a rough few weeks for no particularly momentous reason actually.
In hindsight I can see that my walk with God has been slowly declining from the peaks that it reached in the latter part of 2010. The fire slowly burnt out and stagnation set in and whilst in a general, cliched sense, I haven't backslidden, I suppose that I kind of have.
I think I should explain that statement a little better lol.
Cliched or Bait backsliding:
Wild/regular raving, Drunkenness, Sexual sin, Drug taking / Smoking, Crude/Bad/Profane language, Decline in Church attendance and so on.
My conduct of late wouldn't fit into the above, however, I have been more absorbed with the things of the world and my thoughts have become a lot darker and more sinful of late whilst my relationship with God has waned.
It's kinda weird cos I seemed to just find myself in this situation and it took me a while to discern over where I had gone wrong. I now understand that the enemy has been crafty in his latest assault on my life. Life suddenly became hectic with Uni work piling up, issues arose at work with my manager, a tough financial situation in my family began to effect me, someone at church angered me and so on and so forth. No obvious light skinned devils came to tempt me, no sudden urge to hit "naughty but nice" or whatever the latest rave is called lol just a whole lot of life!
So I began to lose focus on God and instead focus on the worldly/material which has ultimately caused me to get to the place I've been in since 30th Dec 2010 to Today (3rd January 2011). I feel like I've spiritually ate a whole bargain bucket of moreleys chicken and chips to myself. It has been quite horrible come to think of it, feeding the flesh and making little to no effort in the spirit. My prayer life has been a mess, when I have read the word I didn't truly pay attention to it, fellowship's dropped off and so on.
Today I kinda reached the end of my tether.
I watched a shed load of One Piece with no self control, and I just generally jammed on my one's doing nothing of any great worth like a bum! There came a point where I just thought, "this can't go on". I had to turn on some gospel music real quick and when Smokie Norful's "I need you now" came on it was like a breath of fresh air. I realised, actually, yeah Lord I do need you now, and I needed you before and I always will need you! So I chucked myself onto my bed and layed face down before the Lord and poured out my heart and my struggles before him and it was great! I felt so relieved. He spoke to me and showed me a some of where I had gone wrong, encouraged me that He knew that I needed Him, He just needed me to know that lol or re-know that (making up words here).
Now I feel MUCH better and my head is in a better place. I was reflecting, a few moments ago, on how, not long ago, I was in a victorious place where I felt no fear of my uncertain future and now, as I enter into it, I've been confused and unsure. The difference? I haven't been walking in the spirit, but feeding the flesh, focused on worldly things and in this state I've been unable to trust God and live in His peace.
Now that I'm on my way back to the Lord I can see with fresh eyes how beautiful this walk with God is and how ugly life can be when idols come in and He is no longer the desire of our hearts.
So, now officially ready for 2011 seeing as I know, once more, the most important thing anyone can ever know. That I need Jesus!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CDpY-2M5dVo
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