Swirling

So a lot of thoughts are swirling around my head.
Let me explain.

When I was in school there was one boy who was in my class. The boy was semi road and I brought him to church a couple of times. Long story short, he went pen (prison) and I didn't see him for ages.

I saw him around the ends now and then as I got older and now I haven't seen him in years. The yout (young male) then added me on facebook the other day and he's clearly gone 100% road. The yout also knows where I live. Soo I am embarrassed to admit that, using my fleshly/hood mind, I decided it was wiser not to accept his friend request in case he was looking to "try a ting".
So... I ignored his request and left it for months. He re-requested again today and having been to church and convicted etc I just decided to accept.

Turns out he's in prison and asks for me to pray for him...

So here I am. Jon with dreams of helping out in the hood and being real, relevant and reflecting Christ in my community, and yet up until that moment when I accepted his friend request I was a total hypocrite. I now feel quite waste I must say.

The thing is I really would like to be all that I said above but I've got a lot to learn. However, I suffer from over deliberation and mass inaction across practically all areas of my life except when it comes to criticising people or making jokes :s .

LORD please help me to be the man that you want me to be, please help me to walk in your truth and not be a hypocrite, please help me to change people's lives and not just be a Christian who goes to church and doesn't rave, doesn't swear, doesn't smoke and doesn't do anything that matters really. In Jesus' name. Amen.

I started off saying that a lot of thoughts (plural) are swirling around my head... and they are that's just one of em'. I'll share the rest another time; God willing. Keep me in prayer if you've bothered to read this lol I'm 20 now, old-er but still young and in need of Grace.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v17BcjVeQ_g   << listen to it.